Blog for Gay Men about Spirituality and Sexuality

This is a website for men / male identifying individuals who understand that they are all one only brotherhood, regardless their sexual orientation, color, age, and social standing and that their sexuality is an integral part of us that we all share and celebrate, because it is the strongest energy we have. (Our interested sisters are welcome as well!)

Aspiring to live our earthly life out of the awareness of our higher consciousness, which is beyond space and time, we have stopped separating our spirituality from our sexuality and instead, use the energy of eros as a portal to our divine essence.

Myself (Patrick Emmanuel) and my friends, we want to encourage to connect with each other and to embrace all the power given to us, in order to step into the full calling of what we are meant to be in our small time on this earth, discontinue limitation through mere human conventions and patters (including sexual orientation), that have bound us to long learned conditioning, so that instead we live abundantly for sharing love, light and beauty, and raise the consciousness of this planet.

The pictures I am posting reflect my own journey, relationship to my body, sexuality and to what is beyond the physical world, and are not meant to set limits to what gender to love.

Small Group Events for Men

Deeply transformative retreats in Heidelberg, Germany, with a group of 3-5 men*

Next event: February 20-22 !!

My home is your home for 3 days

The Small-Group-Events-For-Men (SGEM) are a new format in which I offer to accompany you together with a small group of men (3 up to max 5) through deep transformational processes around desire, shame, lust, freedom, ecstasy and universal Oneness. Themes include tools like Sacred Intimacy, Tantra, Plant Medicine ceremonies, The Sacred Orgy, Mystery School training (Eros + Plant Medicine), Photography and others. The events combine the very close connection and individual care of a 1:1 setting with the blessings of a close confidential brotherhood around you, that supports and holds you on your journey of self-exploration.

Next Dates!

February 20-22
March 13-15
April 17-19
Further dates will be announced shortly
You can also book a whole retreat with a group of your friends

(When coming from abroad, you can use the days before and after both for private sessions with me at a reduced rate and for your personal trip to Heidelberg and surroundings – one of the most beautiful areas of Germany)

Themes will be assigned to dates according to sign-ups.

Price: 450.- to 550.- €/$ (depending on theme / duration) including accomodation and all meals

In these 2-3 days (depending on the format) my home will be yours. It is located in Heidelberg, for good reasons one of the top tourist spots of Germany. Overlooking the stunning river valley from above, you will feel the warm welcoming and cozy atmosphere of unconditional love that opens you for deep experiences. Trails through the beautiful surrounding nature will invite us to connect not only to the power of nature but to our own essence and integrate what we were going through.

Different from classical retreat formats, these are much more tailor-made:

You choose from the list of retreat themes the ones that feel to resonate with you most. (To help you for clarity, I offer free 20-min short calls where we can find out together, which themes fit you best, clear up your questions and feel if we are a match.)
Using your application form, you share with me your interest, including a few additional parameters such as the preferred language, boundaries, individual wishes, date preferences from a list. Based on the input and relying on my intuition I will form small groups and suggest dates that fit for all.
After this, you sign-up for the specific date and theme and secure your space with a prepayment of 100 €/$.

If instead of our very intimate closeness of sharing the nights you prefer to have more individual space for yourself, I can optionally also recommend a close by simple but good hotel in walking distance.

– Retreat Themes –

1. Tantra Massage (Beginner / Advanced)

Beginner: So many of us are longing for deeply connecting intimacy rather than the “quick satisfaction” that really is no satisfaction at all. In this retreat you will learn the basics of Tantra Massage and experience how different closeness with other men can be. (Open to both hetero- or homosexually identifying men.)

Advanced: In this retreat you will learn advanced techniques such as Body Flow Massage (body-to-body) and how to extend your ability to call your receiver into deep immersion into the present moment in order to connect with their timeless essence. You should have basic experiences with giving and receiving Tantric massages for men (independently of your own sexual orientation). Apply now.

2. The Healing Art of (sexual) Self Love

So often men use the “quick jerk” to let go of their sexual tension and just as quickly go on with their every day life. Would we deal like this with a lover? Do we not deserve ourselves the love that we may render to others? The practice of real self love can be an immensely healilng present to ourselves that helps us to connect and integrate with our sexual energy and make it a source of life and transformation. Learning this together in a group of supporting men is powerful to release shame and distance to our peers which ultimately is a distance to ourselves. (Open to men of all sexual orientations.) Apply now.

3. Male Intimacy for Straight Men

The need for physical closeness, being held, and intimacy is innate in all of us, and naturally we first experience this kind of male intimacy from our fathers, but this is also where the first break often occurs, namely when it is not allowed to happen or happens far too little. Many “learned” male emotional distance here or were taught that it was unmanly. We then experienced (or did not experience) the same with brothers and friends. Perhaps we felt the desire for normal intimacy with other men, but perhaps all that remained was the lack of the blessings that such male closeness would have brought us: security, affirmation of who we are, and the relaxed confidence to “stand our ground in the world” as men. But many of us did not allow ourselves to have such a desire, because “that would be gay!”

This weekend opens up a safe, non-sexual space where we can have new experiences of closeness among men. Various exercises support us both in the courage to let ourselves in and in the confidence to perceive and express our boundaries (or, if we want, to expand them). While we experience wonderful fellowship in a circle of men who are becoming familiar to us, we can experience the liberating changes taking place within us, that prepare us for our next challenges! Apply now.

4. Cosmic Sexuality

How can sexual interactions become a portal to the timeless realm of divine presence? As in Western Societies we generally tend to focus our being in the mind, we have largely lost this access which blocks this portal. In this retreat we learn how we can dive deep into a state of presence and how an intimate or sexual interaction can become the expression of the limitless flow of lifeforce. (For this retreat you should be open to sexual interaction with men.) Apply now.

5. Introduction into BDSM and Domination-Submission

May be you could never imagine how dominating another person (or being dominated) could be erotically arousing, so that you say “not my thing”. Or you have always been curious but didn’t dare to dive into this community that seems so “strange” from outside. In this retreat we want to explore how Domination and Submission experiences can not only teach us unknown sides of ourselves but be powerful instruments of healing for ourselves. Apply now.

6. The Sacred Orgy

When we hear of an orgy, most of us would rather think of the opposit of sacredness. But truly we inherited this term from the Ancient Greek Mystery Schools where it described a sexual interaction in a state of consciousness that had been widely opened to divine presence and an interaction that arises from this place. In this interaction the question of personal preferences and the ego have been dropped because we entered a much wider space that becomes for us a pathway to our true essence. (Participants should be open to intimate interaction of men.) Apply now.

7. Breakthrough into New Levels of Consciousness

Our everyday consciousness allows us insight into only a very small part of reality, and for most people there are few moments when they become aware of this: when a loved one dies, when they contemplate a breathtaking landscape and its beauty, perhaps during profound sexual experiences or stirring dreams. Throughout the millennia, people have used naturally occurring substances to gain a more complete perception of dimensions that are otherwise hidden from us and thus to encounter the timeless essence of their own person. In the protected setting of a small group, we are guided into such a deep experience and then learn to integrate what we have seen into our ordinary waking consciousness. For many, both the “journey” itself and the integration are life-changing experiences. Apply now.

8. Plant medicine and Eros

Even the ancient mystery schools knew about the connection between mind-expanding substances and the power of Eros, which connects people and lies at the core of the beginning of existence—two portals that resonate powerfully together. After an introduction to Sacred Sexuality and Tantra on the first day, we will embark on the ceremonial journey together and experience what it does to us when we connect physically with each other in an expanded state of consciousness. In this first edition, the offer is aimed at men who are intimate with men and already have previous experience of the kind described in the aforementioned retreat theme “Breakthrough into new levels of consciousness.” Apply now.